XXX rated: In bed with Inna

September 2018, Inna's apartment, Kharkiv

I was a little worried about just what the effect of the Viagra tablet might be. I had had a hard-on almost all evening, especially once I'd learned that I'd be sleeping at her place Sunday night. At her apartment it seemed pretty strong but not noticeably any bigger. All I wanted was to be able to satisfy her. I had had trouble getting it up with both Debbie and Sophie and, whilst I hadn't really wanted to do it with either of them, I would have preferred to have been able to show them that I was capable! It was just a pride thing. So I was really wanting to be able to do it right with Inna.

I went to bed first and she followed shortly afterwards. She lay initially with her back to me and I hugged her from behind, feeling her breasts first and then moving my hands down between her legs. We kissed passionately and there was plenty of desire in her. She let me play with her from behind again and told herself that she had extra fat but it was OK. I remember thinking that was quite sweet as she must have been embarrassed about the extra flesh she had around her thighs. Her breasts were small and not much there to do anything with but she reacted quickly whenever I touched her and certainly when I felt between her legs.

She rolled over and pushed me onto my back and started to suck on my penis. She was impressed at how hard it was. That was good but it probably would have been like that without the tablet! She seemed to enjoy that and then I took off her pants and it was time to enter her. This worked well and was quite easy and we settled down to moving with each other for some considerable time. We switched position slightly from time to time and each time I had no trouble with re-entry. By now I was beginning to relax and I could see that everything was going to be all right.

When I did think that I might have done enough and could think about coming she said No, almost in panic as she was not there yet. So it was now for her to move and manoeuvre so that she was ready for what she called her Big Coming and I could join in at that point finally too. That was good, I can't deny it. Good sex. She was pleased and seemed most impressed! You can imagine just how good that was for my ego and confidence! I needed that after so many years. The last real success had been with Tanya way back in July 2013. That was over 5 years before. I deserved this now. I was also grateful to Inna for letting me in. She seemed a respectable woman and not someone who slept around. She may have had something with some troops and had had a short relationship with a Swedish guy so she was not that out of practice but was nevertheless appreciative, very appreciative of my efforts.

As she went to sleep I felt very weird. I was quite worried for a while as I knew that I had high blood pressure and I didn't really know what side effects the Viagra might have on me. I had taken a chance, living a little dangerously and I lie there hoping that I hadn't made a big mistake health-wise. It was like all my senses were enhanced. I could hear everything and my nostrils felt as if they were enormous although they were quite normal, of course. I did my best just to stay calm and try to control my pulse and breathing. I guess I did sleep but it was light and not that great.

In the morning I made a move towards Inna again and quickly excited her once more. She seemed quite happy to let me play and then let me in, this time from behind at first. Once again things developed and we finished up in several positions but the traditional one was her preference for her Big Coming once more. We had been at it for a while again and were a little breathless but I didn't feel too exhausted. In fact I now did feel sleepy whereas for most of the night i had just felt weird and a bit scared too.

Inna went to clean herself but didn't come back. She may have mentioned going to lie down in another room. I can't remember but she seemed totally exhausted and actually a bit annoyed. I didn't try to understand as I just dozed off anyway. I was actually quite pleased just to sleep again and it was probably the afternoon by the time I woke up properly. I got up and got dressed and looked around but she was not in anywhere obvious. There were several rooms and I guessed she had gone to sleep in one of them. I didn't really know why but decided it was best not to ask or go and seek her. If she needed the rest and to be on her own then I should respect that.

It was evening when she did emerge. All day I had been on my own in a strange apartment. I'd found some bits and pieces to eat and drink but It had been a bit strange. She never really explained herself but was implying that she couldn't cope with so much sex and it had totally wrecked her that morning. I don't know for sure but I almost felt as if she had been keeping away from me for fear that I might want more. I don't think that was the case really but it was a strange conversation. She was impressed in one breath but complaining in the next. I didn't say a great deal.

We did have some good sex again, though, on Monday night, after all. She was very responsive and this time I needed no Viagra assistance. Things just worked fine and she was more than pleased which made me proud once more. We didn't talk about it much in the morning (and we did leave quite early so there was no morning activity on this occasion!)

In our video chats after I got home she again said that she was very impressed and that was a big thing (in both senses, we laughed!) that would be important if we were to have a relationship. She hadn't planned to have sex but was glad that I had made the moves, although she never did explain the Monday disappearance other than she felt totally drained as if her orgasms had taken all he energy away from her.

November 2018 Gozo

In my post I referred to problems on out first night. I had gone to a lot of trouble to make a nice atmosphere for our first night together again. So when she rejected my advances in bed I was stunned and extremely frustrated. Had she explained that she was tired or unwell I might have understood but she said nothing and all I got was a sort of backward shove to leave her alone. That was not easy. I had a bi hard-on and had been looking forward to this for ages. I was quite offended. I  couldn't sleep so I got up and sat outside on the balcony for a while. I had another drink or two as a bottle of wine had some left. Eventually I guess I got tired and went to sleep in bed. That was not a good start. 

The next night Inna went swimming after dinner and I went with her to the roof pool and watched, taking some photos too. She didn't look that great on the photos and I know I might need to do some editing. Her thighs were pretty big. She had long legs which she told me she was proud of but I didn't exactly find myself reacting to her flesh on show. We did sleep together, though, that night and I felt that she was beginning to want me a bit more. Generally, though the hotel had been a waste of money.

In the apartment we went to bed quite early, with wine and Italian desserts. She seemed much more accessible there and I was able to make love to her quite quickly after we had gone to bed. She was very willing and called me a Sex God! That was most encouraging!! She offered herself to me in many positions and I really quite enjoyed myself there for several days. We had sex most nights and about every other morning. She was quite surprised at my abilities which was a genuine surprise and not just her being complimentary to please me. She really did become a different and much nicer person as the days went by.  Often she would go out to the balcony and smoke one of those annoying e-cigarettes. I would follow her and I liked to feel her underneath what little she was wearing. I never got much reaction, though. I was hard and could have done something there while she stood but she never wanted anything outside like that. Once I had had it that was it. Even before going to bed I would try and press against her but she just didn't react well at all. I resigned myself to accepting that I would get what she wanted to give.

She was quite shocked one evening when it seemed that she had a period, after what may have been many months if not years of no such action. This meant that we couldn't have sex which I understood entirely but she wanted to watch me masturbate which she said was interesting and also excited her. That was a strange sensation as I brought myself to come. I actually needed to use some water for added lubrication and effect as I tend not to shoot a big load these days. It was quite nice to have her watch, though. A new experience for me.

December 2018 Den Haag

The main posts will summarise my feelings but here are some specifics about what really caused trouble.

She told me to wake her on the morning after I arrived. I did but she reacted badly and told me to wait. So there I am with a big hard-on. expecting to be able to sleep with my sexy girlfriend and she tells me to stop, go away or whatever. A lot later she lets me in and things work nicely but I am very much dancing to her tune here. Almost every morning when she suggests the night before that I should come to her she is either annoyed that I wake her or annoyed that I have made her feel tired when she has let me do something. She could easily have slept with me in the back bedroom but she didn't and there was little sign of love and affection when her 'children' were there. I got pretty much ignored.

January 2019

Amsterdam

At Russell's apartment we finally had a room to ourselves and were able to enjoy sex again.

A hotel somewhere in North Holland

I can't remember the name of the place where we stayed but this was where she behaved most weirdly. She had told me on a previous night that I should not keep asking to have sex but if I waited then she would come to me. This night I did what she asked and my reward was a strange sort of strip show. I lay on the bed naked and with a hard-on. She stood at the bottom of the bed and sort of danced without music, gyrating and trying to be sexy. She slowly removed her clothes and when her pants came off I could see that she had several hairs still around her vagina which was oddly discoloured in places. I had not really looked at it before very much. It was a bit embarrassing to be honest and she looked slightly ridiculous and not particularly sexy at all. Nevertheless I stayed erect and interested and she moved her vagina along my shaft quite nicely before climbing on to me and inserting me inside her.

That was all very strange indeed.

Back at Den Haag

The days out had seemed to help us find each other again and now it was just two days before we were due to part again. Once again she would sleep on the convertible sofa in the living area and I would sleep in the back room. It was as if she could just turn off any sexual desire. This was the last full day. I had slept alone again and got up in the morning, moved my car to a new free parking spot and come back in. I sat near where she slept waiting for her to wake up. It was well past the time she had said I could join her but I had had her evil tongue already for disturbing her too early so I tried very hard to keep away.

Eventually I made some noise and she woke. I move in to lie next to her but she complained I was cold. I moved away but stayed nearby. I reminded her that this would be the last chance to make love before we parted. It didn't have much effect. I tried again and it was getting quite strained. Nothing was happening so I gave up and we went for a walk to a Japanese Garden some distance away. When we got back I tried once more as time was passing quickly and it might not be that long before her 'children' would return. She sort of gave in and then overreacted completely. She asked me what did I want. As if it wasn't obvious. I told her. She said where did I want to do it. I said the back bedroom. So we went there and she just stood and said I could do what I wanted. This was very strange but I had decided that I was going to take her one last time. we had had several disagreements as the other posts will describe and I was losing faith in there now being any future relationship. this was the end and I was going to have my way with her one last enjoyable time. It reminded me a bit of Eyes Wide Shut. 

She just stood there. I undressed her, completely so she stood there nude. I held her close and rubbed against her to excite her but did not kiss her lips. I asked her to lie on the bed and took off my own clothes. I was hard but asked her to help me to enter her and she held my penis and moved it slowly into position and then into her. I was not as hard as I would usually have been with her, this being quite a strange experience. But I soon did get harder once I was fully inside and I had sex with her body. She hardly showed any reaction at all but I made sure that I came and was satisfied. I was not concerned about her on this occasion, just purely selfish. She had driven me to this base act of self satisfaction.

I could not stay lying on her but pulled myself out of her and wiped myself clean. She got up and, without a word, went to clean herself in the bathroom. And that was it. I knew that the relationship would never recover from that. I felt bad but it had seemed the right thing to do. A sort of final satisfaction.